本帖最后由 蓝野形而上 于 2009-11-10 16:35 编辑
There had been so many questions I wanted to know but never could bring myself to ask. This world would be a much happier place if everyone knows: There are so many hearts broken because there are so many words unspoken.
有很多的问题我想去寻求答案，但我从来都没有去问询答案的所在，如果这个世上没有如此多的谎言令人心碎，那么这将会是一个多么幸福美好的地方。
I know it, so I psyched myself up and finally did the impossible (ask the questions which would haunt me for the rest of my life if I didn’t), only to find something else that haunted me more.
正应如此，更多让我苦恼的事情，让我失去了勇气并最终未去付出行动（此类问题只会让我的余生更加的苦恼），
Still, I should admit that somehow, I’m relieved, knowing clearly that something and someone is not what I thought it was and he is not perfect for me. Even though I felt I’d hit my humiliation limit, I’m glad to know that my heart is still off limits to anyone but that really really special guy whom, of course, I’m still looking for. T_T
因此，我务必承认有时我会莫名其妙，我自我安慰，并清楚的知道有些人有些事不是我所想的那样，而且他和我是不合适的，虽然如此，我感到羞愧难藏，我的心仍在寻找一位特别的他能让我心受到限制。
But where is he? It’s been four and a half years. I’m exhausted! There were a couple of times when I thought I had found someone whom I could actually be with, then……fuck’em.
但他在哪呢？4年半过去了，我已筋疲力尽，我一直付出双倍的时间在寻求我所能托付终生的人。
I viewed some profiles today. I saw some old guy’s. As I sat there, seeing his nude obese body, soft dick dangling at the crotch, saggy ass and he was looking for some brutal top to fuck him hard…I was a little bit amused and uncomfortable. Then I saw his wrinkled and weathered face. He seemed so old and fragile. Suddenly I felt terribly sad, for him and for myself.
我今天看到一些相片，我看到一位年长点的他。我坐在那，看着他的裸体相片，他的生殖器在双腿间自然的垂直，他的PP显的紧实，他在寻求一位强壮结实的一与他发生性爱，我感到到欢乐而又不安。然后我看到了他满是皱纹和经历经风雨的脸。他看上去是如此的苍老而脆弱。为此我突然感动悲伤，为他，也为我。
Not having a man in your life to grow old with, a man who cares for you, who says I love you, or in this gentleman’s case, a man who can fuck you when you need to be fucked…it’s so damn frustrating just thinking about it.
没有人能与你同生共老，没有人能关爱你并对你说我爱你，没有人会很温情的与你共享性爱温存在你想的时候，一想到此就让我感动愤怒和受挫。
Will I be lucky enough to finally find someone to grow old with? What if I’m still looking for that someone when I’m officially old?----my scary age would be 40.
真的没有足够的幸运让我找到一个同生共老的人吗？我还要持续去寻找我所爱的人直到我老去吗？---此时我已是40年纪，真让我惊慌。
oops…I start to feel like one of those desperate women. I’d better stop and go to sleep.
哎，我开始感觉好像自己是一个绝望的怨妇。我还是最好不要再想了，还是进入梦乡安然入睡吧。 |
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